Waiting... I loved this Sam. I can relate deeply with what you started with, "That you have read all the books, done all the preparation, completed all the “forms”, signed on the dotted line, paid the deposit, completed the courses, spoken to the “right” people!" And there is still waiting. Waiting for what? Enlightenment, awakening, aha moments where it all comes together after all the study, meditation, chanting and discourses? To finally cross that threshold that I have been promised? Hmmm. I have come to see there is no line in the sand, just this. As your name of this substack reveals, it is soft, simple and still. Thought it does not always feel that way. There is anxiousness, worry, grief and pain. Yet as we discussed on our call, they have a place at my table. I sit with them. Learn from them., And walk into their depths. Being with what is. Not fighting it... just this!
This is so beautiful to read, thank you Julie. To wait is to sit with the ALL OF ME and only when I can do that with softness, simpleness and stillness can I truly cross the deeper thresholds of my life - the thresholds where no book or forms or courses can ever lead me. Blessings to you my dear friend. x
Oh my Sam I am too in the waiting room. Sometimes pacing, sometimes huffing and puffing, sometimes in a state of relaxed anticipation. I am happy to wait here with you when you paint such a lovely picture xx
Oh I am so glad that I have a friend here! Shall I pour you a cuppa?
I can relate to all the emotions you shared...the pacing, huffing, relaxed...currently I am finding that I may need a bed in the Waiting Room...I am feeling tired today. Sometimes waiting is tiring...What about you? xxx
Yes please Sam! I am so tired, I can be patient and then not so. I might just sit in my pyjamas in the waiting room with my favourite stuffed toy and a cup of steaming hot chocolate. xx
Waiting... I loved this Sam. I can relate deeply with what you started with, "That you have read all the books, done all the preparation, completed all the “forms”, signed on the dotted line, paid the deposit, completed the courses, spoken to the “right” people!" And there is still waiting. Waiting for what? Enlightenment, awakening, aha moments where it all comes together after all the study, meditation, chanting and discourses? To finally cross that threshold that I have been promised? Hmmm. I have come to see there is no line in the sand, just this. As your name of this substack reveals, it is soft, simple and still. Thought it does not always feel that way. There is anxiousness, worry, grief and pain. Yet as we discussed on our call, they have a place at my table. I sit with them. Learn from them., And walk into their depths. Being with what is. Not fighting it... just this!
This is so beautiful to read, thank you Julie. To wait is to sit with the ALL OF ME and only when I can do that with softness, simpleness and stillness can I truly cross the deeper thresholds of my life - the thresholds where no book or forms or courses can ever lead me. Blessings to you my dear friend. x
Oh my Sam I am too in the waiting room. Sometimes pacing, sometimes huffing and puffing, sometimes in a state of relaxed anticipation. I am happy to wait here with you when you paint such a lovely picture xx
Oh I am so glad that I have a friend here! Shall I pour you a cuppa?
I can relate to all the emotions you shared...the pacing, huffing, relaxed...currently I am finding that I may need a bed in the Waiting Room...I am feeling tired today. Sometimes waiting is tiring...What about you? xxx
Yes please Sam! I am so tired, I can be patient and then not so. I might just sit in my pyjamas in the waiting room with my favourite stuffed toy and a cup of steaming hot chocolate. xx
I'll sit with you with a cup of tea and I'll bring my hot water bottle and maybe I'll bring and introduce my favourite friends too...xx