The Eclipse. The Moon and Me...

Has the moon and the eclipses affected you too? Plus a dream to share.

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Hello my dear friend,

How have you been feeling over the past couple of weeks?

Are you aware that there have been two eclipses of late?

The Lunar Eclipse with the Full Moon two weeks ago

and the Solar Eclipse with the New Moon this evening.

For me, these times are both empowering, challenging and discombobulating.
Sometimes I feel strong and grounded,
as though I have all the answers to my deepest questions
other times I feel as though I am whirling in a washing machine.
and I feel as though I am lost in a sea of stormy waves.

What about you?
How have you been feeling these past couple of weeks?

About 4 nights ago I had a dream

I was at a beach. I was standing on the right hand side of the beach on some sandy grass
and I remember pausing as I looked out to the surf.

I began to walk down from this landscape into the ocean.
The waves looked small,
the ocean shallow
the tide was soft.

The waves invited surfers.


I walked forward,
quite a way from the grassy bank into the ocean,
and just stood there.
The waves were gently lapping at my feet.

Then I became aware that I was in standing in the middle of where the surfers were surfing. There were lots of surfers surfing the waves around me.
Sooo many surfers.
Beside me to my left
they were riding the waves,
Behind me
they were sitting on their boards,
In front of me they were surfing towards the sand.

It felt as though the ocean was divided into two parts.
The surfers beside me
and the surfers in front of me.
And I was in the middle.

Despite the division,
I was aware that the surfers knew where each other was.

And where was I?
I was standing ankle deep in the waves
with the waves washing my feet
and the surfers surfing around me.

I saw the surfers.
I could feel their movements
and yet they did not notice me.
I was separated from them
and yet I was there.

The waves separated me from the rest of the ocean.
It was as though I was standing on my own little island.
In my own “patch of ocean.”

The surfers moved past me.
Moved in front of me.
Moved from behind me.
Left.
Behind.
In front.
I could happily watch the surfers from each of those directions.

To my right?
It felt they were there too and yet I was unsure.
To my right it felt uncomfortable.
Why would I want to look to my right?
Why would there be any surfers there anyways
Wasn’t there just supposed to be lots of water,
more beach,
more sea?

I wanted to look,
turn my head around
yet to do so felt it would change the dream.
Change the energy.
Change what message and
experience I was meant to have

And yet,
in hindsight,
the Right Side also had something to offer me.

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Initially I felt very peaceful.
Content even.

Then,
I felt very agitated.

Worried.

Concerned.

I was aware that the shore was quite a long way away now,
and even though the waves were moving around me,
the way back to the front of the beach was very very far away.

I could no longer see in front to the shore line,
and to the side where I had come from
that space was filling up with so many surfers
that to get past I would have to swim between boards and surfers
and that felt unsafe and uncomfortable.

I was conscious that my physical body was feeling the anxiety that I began to feel in my dream.
I was aware of my heart rate changing.
My breathing changing.
I was aware that I had tensed my body and that it was beginning to feel uncomfortable.

What if I can’t get back to shore?
What if the surf gets so big that I drown?
These surfers can’t see me, what if I am in trouble?
I was aware that at this particular time on the beach, in my dream, there were no surf life saving guards.
I started to feel very anxious. Nervous. Skittish.

************

The waves continued.
They were neither getting bigger nor smaller.
Yet the tide was coming in
and I
I was just there -
in the middle of my little island
surrounded by surfers who could not see me.

And Yes,
I WAS SAFE.

And at the same time
I FELT VERY ANXIOUS

What if I want to get back to shore?
What about my children?
What about my family?
What about….

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I am able to change things in my dream.
Give different ideas a try and see if they feel right.
Can you do that too?

So I imagined that that a helicopter came.

I tried being rescued by the helicopter.
It felt artificial.
It felt wrong.
Oh yes it felt safe.
Absolutely.
It felt kind of fun being hauled out and up
and swinging there for a moment before possibly entering the helicopter.

Yet it felt wrong.
VERY WRONG.

I abandoned that idea.

And that brought me back to my “little island” in the middle of the surf,
In the middle of surfers who couldn’t see me.

***********

I wasn’t drowning.
And yet I couldn’t swim anywhere for fear of bumping into the surfers
I was just there.
Standing in my little space.
I couldn’t sit down because the waves would wash over me
and I was aware my legs would get tired of standing up all the time.
I was also aware of the sun getting stronger and brighter.

So, I was just there.
Watching the surf come around me.
Watching the surfers ride their waves .
I watched them have fun
connecting to the waves,
connecting to the tides
connecting to themselves,
to each other,
to the vastness of the ocean.

Connecting to everything
but me.

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I was aware that I had to come back to this time and space,
It was time to wake up ,
and yet I knew that to get out of bed just now would not complete the dream,
rather it would make me tired
and the dream feel unresolved.

However I knew I had to get up.

And in the dream it felt like it was time to come out
Time to step back onto the shore
How was I going to get to the shore in a way that did not feel wrong,
feel artificial,
feel fake.

Then I heard a little voice that said…“Ask the ocean for help?”
So I asked the waves, would they help me get back to the shore
to the bank where I started from.

The waves began to part
The surfers moved around me
I began to walk back…

HOWEVER,

I realised I was missing something…

I realised I did not actually want to go back to that particular shore.
I realised that this isn’t how I wanted this dream to end.
I realised that I failed somehow.

I wanted to go back and be on the shore again,
Yet I didn’t want THAT shore any more.

I woke up.

The dream still lingered
Unfinished.
Untended.


What did I miss?
What did I really want?
What did I forfeit in my need to go back to the shore?


I felt like an outsider
All around me were these possibilities,
these adventures
these different ways of connecting
these cycles and tides
and yet I felt as though all I did was stay in one spot.

I shared this dream with my partner last night.
I shared that I knew that it was time to leave the ocean
yet I didn’t want to be rescued -
I didn’t want to be a victim.
I shared that I was concerned that if my children needed me I couldn’t get there if I was caught in the middle of the ocean.
I shared that while being in the ocean was lovely
I could only access this tiny island I was standing on.
I shared that I didn’t want to go back the way I came
and that I wanted to have a choice in the way I did this.

One of the things he said was that in the dream it seemed I was protected.
That if I walked ahead the surfers would not bump into me.

I got an image that I could just walk forward,
towards the sand.
Straight ahead.

Despite the waves
despite the surfers
despite the boards all around me
I saw that walking straight ahead was SIMPLE and STRAIGHT FORWARD
and the strange feeling to my right went away.

I realised that to go towards the sand and shore made me feel expanded,
free.
I liked that landscape more than I liked the grassy area where I started.
It also meant that I was consciously walking towards a liminal threshold -
where the ocean meets the shore
and in consciously walking towards that
I was choosing something profound.

Just before I fell asleep last night I began to walk
towards a threshold that I was feeling very happy to cross.

This morning I woke feeling more balanced.

I share this dream because that is how I feel these two eclipses have affected me.

I felt that I had a choice in my dream to reclaim my power in a way that I wanted to do.

Yes, it was safe to go into the helicopter, however I felt that I was giving my power away to something man-made,
something mechanical
something that invited me to conform and be complicit.

Whilst it was safe to go back to the grassy area
I knew that to go there would be going to a shore that was old
and no longer suited who I was.

When there is an Eclipse it invites us to:

• Look at what has eclipsed our power, obscured our light, covered our dreams.
  

• It invites us to look at our female (lunar eclipse) and male (solar eclipse) lineages and to see what is highlighted, what is covered, what we want to illuminate and what we want to cover.

• It invites us to sit in the uncomfortable knowing that for these moments in time something is going to cover our light.

  How does that make us feel?
  Can we do something about that?
  Is it O.K to let that another be in the limelight for a while?

  While the surfers eclipsed my way because there were so many of them,
  they were unaware of me. Sometimes things happen to block our way.
  Sometimes this is on purpose
  and other times they are just unaware we are there.

• In my dream I felt that I had the power to just be still
  while also choosing what I wanted to do.
  The eclipse invites that of us.
  Sometimes actually demands that of us.
  
  Sometimes during an eclipse we just want answers,
  we just want to do and act and solve,
  sometimes though all we can do is BE STILL
  be still on our little island
  and let life go on around us for a while.
  
  And yes that at times can be frustrating.
  

• Sometimes during this time it feels as though we are also frozen in time .
  Unable to go forward or backwards,
  left or right.
  We have to wait and watch
  knowing that it is important at times to just
  
  observe how we feel.

• At times we just want the easy way out (the helicopter) yet is that the answer?
  Is that our truth?
  

  Sometimes we just have to be still and wait.
  Wait until we have the right conversation,
  receive the right information,
  feel the right feeling,
  rather than act in a way that is inherently wrong -
  despite being safe and right
  and what society/family/culture would expect.

• The Full Moon, the New Moon and the eclipse energies are also asking me/you/us to do what is important for our soul. To do things that make us feel free and alive, connected and vibrant.

  The surfers were all doing what they loved
  and while there were beginners and advanced surfers
  they were in the ocean together
  sharing that feeling of riding the waves.

  No one was trying to outdo the other person
  They were all in the ocean together
  there was an unspoken rule that was being respected -
  to watch out for each other -
  and in that unspoken rule they were riding the next wave to shore.

  What is eclipsing my ability to have fun?
  Why am I an onlooker and not a participant?
  What is stopping me from connecting to others or from trying something new?
  What unspoken rules do I live by? Are they healthy? Do they contribute to the whole in a positive way?

• The Eclipse invites us to stand tall and have our own space in this time
  It invites us to allow ourselves to reflect and ponder
  and ask the bigger questions

  Tonight is the New Moon

  it is an invitation to shine your NEW LIGHT upon the earth in a new way
  released from all the obstructions and expectations
  released from all the ancestral blocks and loss of power.
  

What do you wish to receive from this NEW MOON?
How can you heal your ancestral pain and reclaim your own light?
What do you need to do to trust the little voice within and to walk straight ahead knowing that you will cross a threshold into a new way of being in the world?
What advice would you give yourself to help soothe your nervous system during this powerful time?

Please be gentle with yourselves.
Despite one eclipse being 2 weeks ago, and the other this evening, the energy can last for days or even weeks.
You may feel tired.
You may be grumpy.
You may feel despondent.
You may get a headache.
You may feel cabin-fevered.

Be gentle.
Be kind.
Reach out.
Call on trusted friends - human and otherwise

And be kind and gentle on yourself some more.

In honour of your journey
and where you are today.

If you would like a healing to support you through this time, feel free to reach out.

Blessed be,

My name is Sam. I am a Healer - a Gardener and Storyteller of the Soul. I weave earth based wisdom into simple living and self healing, for you now, and for the 7th generation to come. Welcome to my little corner of the world.

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